Morning diary, I just woke up a while ago. Just feel normal except for the upset feeling is somehow milder. Well ya, just another day, everyone is the same, things remain the same, and I am only a day older. Time just fly, right? I wanna go home, where is it? I dunno...
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
Don't die, Things will be fine
I have been abandoned my blog for so long, only change the songs so that it automatically plays songs when i come alone. fancinated about moonlight resonance, worried about the money i spent, sick about what is happening right now, scared that things just dun turn out the way i want. sudden urge of blogging but have nothing in mind to talk about! Sis, am i still the Angela that you always adore? The escape feeling comes once again, it just never lets me off. Food no longer makes me happy becoz i dun even wanna eat now, my favourite food taste so tasteless. Singing doesn't shout my anger and stress out. Maybe i should try again when James comes back. I dun wanna be a night owl anymore, i will sleep strictly at 10pm, transforming myself from owl to human being. There are more things ahead waiting for me. Adults' life is so tiring for me. Can I just say N G and everything in the world just stops?
Thursday, April 23, 2009
23rd April 09
People just keep passing by, walking pass me, walking towards their destination, while me still stomping on my feet, plugging the ear pieces into my ears, hear nothing but the songs, no heartbeat, no pulses. You see whatever others are doing but you just aint part of them at all. In my own world now... Nobody but myself. Others are cleaning up the mess I created, what else should i do? What else am i expected? RUN? to where? Dream? of what? I am just tied and thrown into the sea. People are trying to save me, so many, as many as it can form a net and drown me forever...
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
THE END
No more working hour 9-6No more drinking the nasty P**** water
No more staring at the computer for 8 hours
No more calling 100 over phone calls everyday
No more "Angela, have you reached the target?
No more eating the same economical mixed rice
No more eating the same economical mixed rice
No more report
No more work target
No more fake laughters
No more pretending
No more computer phobia at home
No more imprisonment in the office
No more stress for a pass/fail
No more doing things that I dun like
Getting back an A.
Then everything worths...
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
To my dearest Angela
can't find words to describe how much i miss you
nothing is comparable to the love i have for you
i miss you so much.....
hoping you are doing ok over there
wishing all the best blessings...
love you, my sweetheart <3
Friday, March 20, 2009
Half Dead
Hey guys, I am back. I know I have not been posting anything lately. For quite sometime right? Reports, then presentations, then exams, then ITP. Excitement? Yes, at first. Now no more. Sorry, please gimme 2 mins to rant, ok? I know many ppl have heard me rant. Sorry guys, let me share the bad things first. Too many bad things on me alr.
Yup, I was attached to this company, so called marketing company, but it is actually a telemarketing company, nicer way to say is teleprospecting. What the hell, try calling for 8 hours, no msn, no blue sky, must reach the set target everyday. More and more tasks to come, once you said you have done. Haix…. Ppl sing, where is the love? I sight where is the sky? The air in the office makes me so sick. The chair in the office makes my butt hurt. The computer in the office makes my eyes so dry. The phone is the most annoying thing on earth, I can press the phone number super fast now. And worst of all, ppl always spy, they look at what the hell you are doing. Just like a predator eyeing its prey, just in 2 sec, CATCH! That’s it, man and woman! Wondering if I am working too hard. Maybe I shouldn’t be so hardworking. So hardworking that I cant sleep well at night, keep waking up to see the time. Oh my god, I am going crazy soon……….. 20, 19, 18, 17, 16, 15, 14, 13, 12, 11, 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0. HAPPY “NO MORE” ITP! Yeay! That feeling is so so so great! What I have to say is this is the worst holiday in my life! Even eating my favourite food doesn’t help at all. Haix. (Opps, I think I take more than 2 mins)
Ok, well, recently there is nothing happy. Only annoying things, more and more. My sensation is numbing, start to feel nothing else… Sorry if I have spoilt your mood, but I really cant think of anything that’s happy at all.
Yup, I was attached to this company, so called marketing company, but it is actually a telemarketing company, nicer way to say is teleprospecting. What the hell, try calling for 8 hours, no msn, no blue sky, must reach the set target everyday. More and more tasks to come, once you said you have done. Haix…. Ppl sing, where is the love? I sight where is the sky? The air in the office makes me so sick. The chair in the office makes my butt hurt. The computer in the office makes my eyes so dry. The phone is the most annoying thing on earth, I can press the phone number super fast now. And worst of all, ppl always spy, they look at what the hell you are doing. Just like a predator eyeing its prey, just in 2 sec, CATCH! That’s it, man and woman! Wondering if I am working too hard. Maybe I shouldn’t be so hardworking. So hardworking that I cant sleep well at night, keep waking up to see the time. Oh my god, I am going crazy soon……….. 20, 19, 18, 17, 16, 15, 14, 13, 12, 11, 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0. HAPPY “NO MORE” ITP! Yeay! That feeling is so so so great! What I have to say is this is the worst holiday in my life! Even eating my favourite food doesn’t help at all. Haix. (Opps, I think I take more than 2 mins)
Ok, well, recently there is nothing happy. Only annoying things, more and more. My sensation is numbing, start to feel nothing else… Sorry if I have spoilt your mood, but I really cant think of anything that’s happy at all.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
U
You are so near to me yet it seems so far.You seem to be just next to me yet I cant feel you at all.
You seem to be speaking right to my ears yet I cant hear a thing.
You seem to be smiling yet I feel your sadness.
You seem to have nothing to do yet tonnes of work are waiting on the list.
You seem to be so real yet you are always pretending.
You seem to be speaking right to my ears yet I cant hear a thing.
You seem to be smiling yet I feel your sadness.
You seem to have nothing to do yet tonnes of work are waiting on the list.
You seem to be so real yet you are always pretending.
You seem to be speaking the words from your heart yet every single word is a lie.
You seem to be caring every single thing I do yet you actually dun give a damn.
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